The heart that beats for mine

The heart that beats for mine

A thousand times goodbye

…but you won’t leave

My mind wanders as you place your hand in mine

Why have you come back?

My new life is untainted by past memories of our ignorant youth

We’d stare at the sun, laugh ‘cause we’re young

But all that has come to fade

Those winter nights, your arms around mine

Your eyes, your smile, your kiss

My head on your chest, I’ll never forget

The way you used to love me.

Reminisce, Bliss.

Warm, your touch, your kiss

Those eyes, the lies I’ve heard so many times before

How I miss those days,

When you would call me Baby

Do you remember those nights in your car?

When we’d stay up and look at the stars?

The train rides to New York, just us two?

How about the cold winter nights, me there by your side,

Holding you, caressing you, loving you?

Or Atlantic City, where the ocean was ours for a moment

We laid there and for a minute we owned it

Your heartbeat, as I lay on your chest

The Sun, and the sand in our hair

But we didn’t care

As long as we were together

How could you?! I loved you!

I guess, to you, it meant nothing

My love you shared with another

Your touch, your eyes, no longer mine

Now I’m no longer yours

Yet here you’ve come back, calling me Babe.

Now you’re screaming at me, and I’m screaming at you

Your drunken eyes burning with hate

“You’re a piece of shit. I don’t love you.”

I cry out to God “Please take me now,

I don’t want to live anymore.”

Your mask is drawn; they see who you are now

Not the one they once knew

All the lies that you told, yet I never let go

Now they see all the pain that you’ve caused me

Except your family, blinded by every lie that you fed them

“She’s no good, she’s not worth it.”

So I crawl back to that place of my own, and hide

From them

And from you

You’re no longer mine, I’m no longer yours

Two different lives, two different minds

Attached by a strand of hope

I forgot about you, you forgot about me,

Until that day he showed you

How you ran to me, I thought you hated me

Yet you’re back in my life once again

Claiming me, and trying to call me Baby

Now we’re here in your car holding each other

We can’t help but wish we could love one another, again

But then I remember, that day in September

When you said you didn’t love me, the night that I died

My emotions were flushed,

My heart was sealed

But the memories remained

Every night they escaped

And I dreamed of those days,

The ones when you used to love me

Now here we are facing each other

I’m scared to trust you again

You won’t accept me, I’m a fuck-up

We will never be the same

I’m a smoker, a drinker, a lover, a thinker

I’m no longer the Michy you knew

Since that day

When those drunken words revealed the truth

That song that I loved plays in my head

I want to forget, though ill never regret

Every moment we shared, every word you spoke

Every time I touched you every time I loved you

So here we are at my door once more,

I say goodbye, and tears flood my eyes

Your hands grasps mine, and I push it away

“Why?” you ask me

“I can’t” I reply

But the truth is kid, I still love you